After days of feeling unwell I'm beginning to wonder if I did the right thing in volunteering to have my gallbladder operation over the Christmas holiday. I was thinking that I would have finished my writing by then and I'd like to be able to do the performance that Platform have requested. The problem is I feel so unwell these past few days that I'm not sure I can do the physical workshops and that jeopardises my entire project.
I've been relying on cutting out eating fat to keep me free of pain but, for the past few days, there's been a background pain all the time, regardless of what I eat. I then discovered that I really don't get on with Co-codamol. It made me completely dizzy, nauseous and 'spaced out'. Thankfully my stomach relieved itself of the bitter horrid substance in the early hours of Sunday morning. I'm getting used to talking to the out of hours doctor, although often hours after I actually need them. Once again, I am alarmed at the demands on the health service and the effect that lack of funds has on it. I've no money for private health care and so I must take my chances. I don't remember things with the NHS ever being quite this bad and I've worked as a phlebotomist and ambulance woman in Hampshire. I used to have faith in the health care system and understood how it worked. Now even the staff I speak to at my GP surgery sound shocked at the response of one local hospital.
I'm sure Reiki has, and is continuing to, help me.
The real challenge will be if the gallstone obstructs the bile duct and affects my liver. If anyone sees me looking yellow - tell me!
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